Worrying Gets Us Nowhere

I feel I am quite qualified to write today's blog, as I've been unconsciously worrying a lot lately. Even though I always tell people not to worry, I guess it's just a natural instinct that we have no control over and half the time we don't even realize we're doing it.

As I mentioned in my first post, I was let go from my job recently. I looked at that as a gift from God. A blessing in disguise. A new opportunity to do what I need to do for myself, and for others, and a chance to add some elements to this life of mine that have been missing for so long. And that's what I'm trying to do.

However, the mail continues to come. The bills are rolling in, full force, and I've got no way of paying them right now. It stinks! And even though I know God will take care of us, I can't help but wonder "what if". I'm ashamed of myself for admitting that, but it's the truth. So I guess my punishment for that is this migraine I've had for the last couple days. And of course that's not helping at all. In fact, it's debilitating! How can I be productive when I continually have this throbbing in my head?

I'll keep this short and sweet today, and just remind you all that worrying really isn't good for anything. It gets us nowhere. Today's post is a reminder to you, and to myself, that we have to trust and keep the faith no matter how rough things might seem to get. It will always work out in the end, and it will work out exactly the way it's supposed to. You just have to hang on tight and go for the ride.

Everything Happens For A Reason

Sometimes that's hard to believe. And sometimes it's impossible. Especially when we feel we're at our lowest point, yet we keep sinking lower. "Why did this happen to me?" "When are things ever going to get better?" These are things many of us ask ourselves on a daily basis. All too often we get so wrapped up in misery that we lose hope, and we fail to realize that we are where we are because we're supposed to be there.

It's been said that God won't close one door without opening another. We have to remember how true this is. We can't give up hope, or lose faith, or throw in the towels because we're not exactly where we expected to be on our path. We have to keep our heads held high and remember that whatever comes our way is ultimately for our own good. Whether it be the consequences of a choice we made ourselves, or something that seemed to be strictly fate and bad luck. It's always for our own good, and that will become clear to us in due time. I know it's hard, sometimes, but it's worth remembering. Better days are coming, I promise.

Spreading My Wings!

Today seems like a great day to add a blog to the site. It's a bright, new morning, and opportunities are all around. Yep, it's going to be a great day.

Just the other day while at my crummy 9 to 5, I finally realized I wasn't supposed to be there. I'd had that thought before, but not until 3 days ago was I positive of it. That epiphany came when my 'boss' jumped down my throat for something she thought I hadn't done. (Far be it for the boss to be wrong, know what I mean?) But I had taken care of that particular task! I knew my responsibilities, and I was aware of the deadlines. I'd done what needed to be done. And when I was able to prove this to her, she didn't like it. She stood there and pretty much called me a liar to my face, accusing me of not having finished the project until after she confronted it me with it the first time.

The problem was this: Just a week prior, she'd caused a huge uproar between her boss and me. She got me in trouble for doing something she told me to do. That just doesn't sound right, does it? Well it's not. And I wasn't going to sit there and let that man bite my head off for something that I was told to do by my superior. So against my better judgement, my emotions took over and I gave him a piece of my mind. Shortly after that, he called me back in to his office and advised me to watch my attitude, especially with him because "he's the boss". Yep, he's the boss, and I needed my pathetic little paycheck. So I sat there and bit my tongue, having no choice but to let the tears that were welling up just roll down my face.

After that, I steered clear of any conflict. I know I'm extremely sensitive and can be quite hot headed when someone wants to give me a problem for no reason. But still, I could feel the tension in the air as soon as I walked in the building each morning. Then early this week, it started.

"Colleen" accused me of lieing, and all I could do was stand there quietly, letting my throat tighten and my nostrills flare. Never said anything, but I'm sure she felt the vibes I was throwing off.

When I went to lunch that day, I sat in my car, and I cried. Cried! I prayed to God and begged Him to move me along on my path. To show me what it is He wants me to do, then begged Him to help me do it. And then I got fired.

Pretty ironic the way things work out, huh? Well, I'm a firm believer that there are no coincidences. Everything happens for a reason, and it's always for our own good. (Whether we can see it or not. It's a little thing I like to call 'faith'. And I've got it!)

This is a blessing in disguise to me. It's going to be tough without the paycheck every week, but it will work out. It has to. Just 'has' to!

Meanwhile, I'm taking this opportunity, and I'm going to go full force with my readings, offering helpful services to those who need them, and I'm going to do it full time. I believe this is my true calling anyway.

Thank you to all of my visitors, my clients, my friends, my angels, and my soon-to-be 'readers'!